Let’s try an outline, shall we?

I have no idea where to start.

But I’m not getting anywhere this way, and if the last seven years have taught me anything, it’s

• that I could spin in confusion for the rest of my days and get absolutely nowhere

• that no one is coming to save me, and probably not my babies either

• that if one finds a single person willing to see you, you may want to hang onto them for dear life (in healthy ways, of course)

• that justice is a feel-good facade and absolutely does not exist in this realm; outside the Creator’s intervention and/or action through His Body & Army

• that no matter how I feel, I was created. And done so with love, adoration, and intention. As were you, just in case you’re not sure. Which has been tragically intercepted by the free will of others. And so now I must purpose to retake my own free will. I believe it may be the same for you. But it is only by Him that I can purpose anything. I pray that I also heed in doing so through Him.

  

  • Part of this reclamation of my own free will is by disclosing here and now what I do know and what I have experienced (possibly by whom. Dependent on whether I gain any safety; that being because I am the only living being that is (desperately) trying to get my babies safely home into my arms. Or, by way of what should always be my filter, dependent on His discernment through me.).

    I am not suicidal (if you care to begin to learn anything about me, you will understand that that would have already happened). So if not, and as I write to you today, it’ain’t gonna happen, but my purpose (current and as far as I can see, along with aiding in the safety and healing of others) is them and that is more than enough for me.

MORE on the last seven years and what I have and continue to learn, later…